I try to stay positive and remember that there are so many people who have it worse off than we do. We've had it a lot worse, actually. But things are not looking good right now. Applications are turning into fewer interviews and interviews arent turning into employment. Its getting scary.
Car payment is due in less than a week. I dont know what we're going to do. If we let the car go, we are pretty much screwed on any jobs not on the bus route which will make job hunting even harder not to mention grocery shopping, cashing checks, doctors appointments, if we need to pick a sick kid up from school, etc. Im scared. The car is one thing but then theres the electric, the water, the gas... rent. Internet is gone except through the phones and those may not last much longer either.
I dont understand how two people who tried to do things the right way, got education and waited to have children and all that..have fallen so hard. Things looked so bright just two months ago. I know he is so scared and he doesnt want to let it show but I can see it. I can feel it. I wish I could make it better for him, easier for us.
Im so afraid of the streets. We've been there once and it took 5 years to finally feel comfortable, like we were okay and not going back and in just a few short months, we're headed on our way back there. He needs a job break fast and I need something faster. I dont understand why nothing is coming our way. We dont have records, we are drug free, we have stable work histories.
Its so dark in here, I wish I could see the light at the end of this long tunnel.
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